Roofied+break up rant

TW: Mention of drugs

Hello, I need to rant.

A few weeks ago I went with my now ex bf to a party of his office they held at a bar.

I had only met my ex's best friend before because he was kind of my friend too, we'll call him N.

When we got to the bar I had 1 beer.

My boyfriend was hanging out with his friends so I was hanging out with N and another girl since I knew nobody else.

N started asking for tequila shots for us 3 and I was a bit hesitant at first because I was going to travel the next day but I agreed.

Then he asked for another round which I didn't take.

I went to the bathroom and came back to them and he had ordered another round.

I was not feeling like drinking it but he said it was already paid so I did that tequila shot.

After that everything became strangely blurry. Mind you I have had MUCH more to drink other times and I had made sure I ate dinner that night.

Everything started moving very slowly and I am not sure how much time passed until I saw my boyfriend standing a little bit far from us and I told him I wanted to leave bc I didnt feel ok.

I could tell he was pissed at me but didnt tell me why.

5 minutes after we left I literally became a dead weight. I was 100% conscious of everything around me but I couldn't move my body. I couldn't open my eyes. I couldn't speak. I wanted to scream and I couldn't.

I will make the story short and tell you I had the worst night of my life. My boyfriend had to call an ambulance in the middle of the street and I had to spend the night in the hospital until I wasn't intoxicated. They blood tested me and the results had a certain substance that made the hospital call the cops to question my boyfriend about him drugging me.

The next day I felt like absolute shit and all of my body hurt.

My ex told me he is hurt because N (HIS friend) had his hand on my thigh/was grabbing my thigh before we left and I was between his legs somehow sitting down.

I don't even have a memory of this. I drank the shots with that friend and I tested positive to being drugged at a hospital and he said I probably WANTED N to touch me.

It was so heartbreaking and it left me speechless.

I went to that party because of him and I was trying to hang out with other people so he could be free to hang out with whoever he wanted!

So yeah, he ended up breaking up with me because he "can't trust that I don't like his friend". 2 year relationship to the trash.

I don't even liked N and he knew about this soooooo long ago. I am not confirming he drugged me but he saw I wasn't even in full consciousness and he was the one allegedlly touching me. I don't know. Just pissed off.

I have been blamed of being drugged.