Letting go of my surname after getting married

My husband and I got married earlier this year, after being together for nearly 17 years, and having 2 children.

He was never fussed either way about getting married, but it was always something I really wanted, and I wanted to have the same surname as my kids (we gave them his surname).

So we got married. But now it’s time to actually change my name, and I’m really struggling with it.

I come from a big family, and as all my siblings are boys, they’ve married and had kids all with our surname. And I love all my family.

My husbands family, I don’t like do much. I know when I change my name on Facebook I’ll get comments from them about how I’m one of them now, and the thought if that absolutely makes me cringe.

I feel bad though that I’ve said for so long I wanted to get married and have the same last name as my kids, but I didn’t realise how much I’d struggle letting go if my last name.

Did anyone else go through this??