I want to try again

I wish so badly that me and me s/o could try for another baby after our first didn’t make it to term, but we don’t have the money. We barely make rent a lot of the time and I’m about to start college after 2 years of adult Ed. I’m proud of myself for finally making it through, but I keep having dreams that I’m pregnant again. No matter what the actual premise of the dream is, it seems like I’m always pregnant. I want so badly to make it through a full pregnancy. It broke my heart when we lost our little baby and I knew it would be a long time before we would be in a place to try. Now I feel so lost. It’s all that my heart seems to want but it’s so far out of reach:(