Hurting

I don’t even know where to begin I’m so hurt so broken so damaged after 6 in a half years of marriage my husband decided to up and leave me the worst part he did it through a text message while at work packed his clothes and was sneaking them out everyday he went to work he sad he was so depressed and was tired of holding that he cheated on me a year on marriage and was keeping it from me. We was also in the process of adopting a baby but I don’t even know if I’m going to be able to keep him he had the job I’ve been off work since ladies day cause I had staph infection . I feel so lost why why was it that bad I just wish I had a friend