Never seen this sadness in his face:(

We were laying next to each other when we got the news, that my Sis in law and my brother were going to have a baby boy. I was excited for them since I knew how much they have been wanting a boy, and this is their rainbow baby. But the sadness on my hubby's face broke my heart. I haven't been able to conceive and we just took a test yesterday and it was negative, he was sure this was our month. Specially since he told me that he has been looking at babies and feels a strong need to have one. I couldn't hold a tear. I waited until he feel asleep to let a tear roll down my cheek. I thought he had given up. Last month he made me feel that, that was it. So I kinda gave up. Maybe he wanted me to relax and maybe it would happen. But not the case.