Let me tell you about my pregnancy and postpartum. I was in perfect shape before pregnancy. I was in the best shape of my life. I was determined to be the super fit pregnant women. I had it all planned out. I was going to bounce back just like that. Well that didn’t happen. During pregnancy I ended up getting diagnosed with a genetic disorder. My whole body had turned against me. Ranging from constantly dislocating joints, rashes, blood pressure and heart problems, severe migraines, etc. I wasn’t able to keep working out, let alone barely move sometimes. I gained 45lbs. Had to stop working at 30 weeks and Was put on bed rest at 34 weeks. I had her at 37 weeks and tore pretty badly. I’m now 7 weeks postpartum and have huge stretch marks, can’t seem to get the weight off, have a poochy stomach, had my first period and it was absolutely horrific. So heavy I had to go to the ER. I feel ugly, fat, gross, my skin is forever scarred, and I look so so so tired. But I’m so happy to be a mommy. I love this little girl more than I could ever imagine. My heart breaks when she cries and lights up when she smiles. Im so proud of myself and how far I’ve come. I may have a completely different body but I’m so proud to be a mom. I feel empowered and more like a women than I ever have.

This is the real me. And I’m proud of it