Feeling like sh*t

I miscarried at 17 weeks on Christmas eve,, i told my family members I was pregnant 3 weeks before my miscarriage because I thought since I was in the 2nd trimester I wouldn't miscarry

My due date is in 2 weeks and idk what to do or how to feel..me and my s/o ttc for 5 years before our miracle baby and I know 15 people pregnant and due around the time i was..

I feel like shit!