Hi girls im trying to keep this short but i really need your advice.

Im a 16 year old girl working part time behind a cash desk at my local supermarket (5 months now). Its a pretty big supermarket with lots of colleagues.

Quite ironically, i have had a social anxiety disorder for the longest time. I also have fear of failure.

One of the reasons i started working there, is to push myself and get out of my comfort zone. I can be pretty social once i feel comfortable. First month went well and i seemed to like it.

But everytime i did something wrong, i couldn't help but overthink. Everytime i do something wrong, i feel like everyone is judging me even though i am aware that it might not have been such a big deal. But stuff keeps haunting me, and i started to dislike my coworkers. I do have some bitchy and bossy coworkers. I remember this one time i had to work very early in the morning and open the store. i couldnt sleep all night and had multiple panic attacks. What if i did something wrong?? What if i make a fool of myself again?

The supermarket went under construction and renovated two months ago. I havent worked there since, because of the coronavirus, so i asked my boss for time off. Right now, im considering to quit my job. Mostly because i dont feel like going back, especially after the renovation, since there is a new system and ill have to ask around and itll be unfamiliar. But at the same time, i might bash myself for being a coward for resigning from my job. I have a habit of being disappointed in myself whenever i decide to withdraw and hide.

So i guess you could say im in a dilemma right now.

Do i push myself and go back to my part time job, knowing ill have to face anxiety and probably panic attacks?

Or do i quit my job and be able to leave everything behind but later be disappointed in myself and think of myself as a coward?