Gaining too much 🥺

I really really miss the gym. Through strict diet and exercise I managed to lose 100lb (50 of those in 6 months). Now with the gyms closed I feel lost even though I get a home workout done pretty much everyday. On top of all this pandemic stuff, I got pregnant in Feb, my boyfriend and I are trying to buy a house and I work in the medical/pharmaceutical field. I’ve gained about 20lbs from years start and some of that is on me. I don’t have the equipment to work out as hard (6-7 days a week cardio and strength and Personal Trainer on Mondays) and can no longer diet like I did when I wasn’t pregnant (OMAD and couple days water fasting). Plus chocolate gummy bears are my weekness lol. I will admit a part of me is anxious about not looking “pretty pregnant”, I’ve always had an apron belly (even at my smallest I felt (do feel) insecure about it) and I want to have the perfect little baby bump and not gain a ton. I’m mostly worried about my health for my baby, I initially lost the weight because I wanted to be able to run around and promote a healthy lifestyle for my children. Now the gym is my stress relief and my anxiety and depression seem to be getting worse. My gym opens Monday and I tried messaging my doctor to ask if I needed amend anything in my workouts and one of her nurses just sent me an article (that I’ve already read) about safe working out. Sorry for my rambling but I had to get it out and everyone here is so supportive. TIA