Ashamed

I feel my husband is ashamed of me. We have been having many marital issues lately, and are in therapy. My birthday was the other day and he refused to put anything on social media, when he has for his friends and family in the past, and more recently a few weeks ago for his friend birthday. Normally this is never an issue because he would show me off but since we have been off, he hasn’t. Not even once.

I do not exist on his social media at all and this bothers me. Before these issues he would post stories and cute pictures and stuff. And used to get mad at me that I care what people think especially on social media. When I asked him about not posting me he said he is stressed and worried what people will think- that everything is fine or some stupid excuse. Why does he care all of a sudden? So females don’t know he’s single and he can flirt away? Or get DMs?

Our marriage is failing and he has said he’s not committed so why do I stay? He’s an alcoholic who refuses to get help. He becomes verbally abusive when he drinks and has made it very clear I’m not important or someone part of his life. He comes and apologizes and says he’s happy and loves me and wants me. He’s unsure if we will work I am too but now he’s not committed? He’s not proud of me as a person to wish me a public happy birthday?