Holding hands during sex

So me and this guy we aren’t dating but we have sex and we agree to keep things that way but our sex feels much more like I know sex is sex but when we have sex and when we’re done in between rounds we make out under blankets and grab each other’s face and he runs his fingers through my hair.. When we’re having sex or even when I just give him head we grab each other hands passionately and even when he’s just fingering me he’ll grab my hands and likes to feel me squeeze them and we just kiss passionately and slow sometimes to and he’ll tel me to tell him I miss his dicl since we see each other once a week and make me scream I miss him and he’ll tell me how much he misses me during sex