There's been a lot going on in my relationship, ups and downs and some serious downs. We've tried to work through things, especially after this last hude down we had. If I went into details, we'd be here forever.

Basically my boyfriend has been pushing for us to "take a break" and I'm not exaxtly supportive of this. After everything he had done a lot of shit that caused trust issues and he wants a break to "find himself and better himself and see if our relationship is what he wants and what I deserve." Sounds fine, if he wants to better himself and do better I can only support that. But I strongly feel that he can do that while still being in a relationship with me. I'll always support him wanting to do better.

To "taking a break" is essentially breaking up. It's kind of temporary but none the less the people are separated and single until the person who wanted the break either wants to get back together or not. To me thats unfair for the person who didn't want the break. I try to see both sides here because I love him and want to give him what he's asking for and needs BUT at the same time I don't want him to do whatever he wants because he's single now and then just picks me up when he's ready. Its plays games with people who are on the waiting side, in ny opinion. He wants a break but we live together and what am I supposed to do in the mean time. I do not have anywhere I can go in the mean time so I'll still be in the same apartment. I feel I'm supposed to act the same while he's distant and "single" essentially.

I've suggested if he wants to take a break than to me it means breaking up and that i should leave. After the serious down we had my sister suggested I could stay with her but she lives in PA, I'm in FL. So if I leave, I'm gone. I'm not moving across 7 states temporarily just to move all the way back. And with me being gone I know I'll drive myself mad being "on a break" and not knowing what hes doing or who he's with. It drives me mad now because of the trust issues.

To me deciding to be in a relationship means working things out. After everything that happened recently when we decided to work things through, it felt like a new chapter was beginning. Of course something happened that caused us to fight and now we're here again.

Sorry for the novel, but I just really want some advice or your opinions on taking a break in a relationship. I'm getting Ross/Rachel vibes everytime I think about it.