I am sitting here 7 hours to the minute when I found out I was having a boy.

Before we did the reveal, I was excited, happy, pumped about doing the registry, thinking about how I was going to be a mommy. Every time I pictured being a mom it was to a little girl. My husband and I always agreed on girl names, I looked forward to the rompers and the bows and the hair styles. Just having a mother daughter relationship.

Now after the reveal and I am finally alone with my emotions, I can’t stop crying. All of the excitement I had is just gone. I have a pit in my stomach and I am so ashamed of myself and disappointed that I feel this way about my first child.

I know this will pass, but I didn’t realize gender disappointment was a thing until I was left with just my thoughts.

Thank you for listening.