Struggling with weight gain...

I’ve always considered myself fat or big (but as I see pictures of myself from > 2 years ago, I clearly wasn’t). Over the last 2 years, I gained about 20 pounds, mainly in relation to my miscarriages. I was not able to lose it before I got pregnant again. I know I have to gain weight for my baby to be healthy, but I’m mentally struggling. I’m seeing my weight getting out of control and me not being able to lose it after birth 😭😭😭

I’m always ambivalent toward food...

Am I the only one?