3rd baby but terrified of giving birth!

Yes you read that right this is my 3rd baby and I’m terrified beyond belief to have her in July and the closer I get the more petrified I am. I had an all natural vaginal with my first everything went perfect with him but my second little boy not so much sadly. I got up to 8 cm and my water was just stubborn and didn’t want to break so they had to break it for me, no biggie you figure right? Well within minutes of my water breaking my son lost his heart beat. His head was on his umbilical cord in the birth canal and it was stopping blood flow and air flow to right about everything. After they tried time and time again to move him or position him nothing worked and I had to immediately be put in for an emergency c section. He went 14 minutes without a heart beat so after he came out there was no sound. My baby was lifeless but the amazing doctors got him back and that was the start of his journey here he went 2 weeks in the nicu at full term. He beat all of the odds and has no deficits of any kind. We still see a neurologist once a year until he is in school just in case but that’s why I’m afraid to give birth again. I opted for a c section because my doctors office doesn’t allow Vbac and the closest one that did was an hour away from me so I didn’t want to travel so far all the time. Anyways I’m terrified of something happening to her like it did my second son. I still have a month until she is due but the closer I get the more anxiety and anxious I get. I just need friendly words of any kind to ease my mind.