This is postpartum

Postpartum is really kicking my butt.

This is what it looks like. Laying topless just praying LO finally latches, but of course he won’t .. so you cry with him until he falls asleep. I have tried every trick under the sun to get him to breast feed. It breaks my heart because I want that bonding moment with my son but it’s just not happening. I have had to pump which is exhausting. I’m pumping all day and all night to only get about an ounce at a time which is also disheartening. I’ve struggled the last 6 days since he was born so if anyone or everyone please say prayers for the mommas who are struggling big time.