IM PREGNANT- but sooo scared.

Hi! I’m 42 and I got a bfp blood test yesterday at the hospital bc I saw a very very faint line at home. I didn’t wanna wait. 😏 yesterday 6/10 I was only on cd24. I have a long history of second trimester mc’s 😔 with my last one happening 9/7/19 at 20w4days I had chorioamnoitis, the normal bacteria I had in my vagina traveled thru my cervix.. and I had a cerclage placed also. That was my 10th mc. This pregnancy was not planned... I know I need to be under a doctors care... but I’m soooo scared for them to touch me. I’m afraid of what will happen. It’s like I don’t want them poking and prying inside of me to possibly cause me to have complications. I don’t know how to feel or what to do. I just wanna go a day at a time...if it’s meant to be it will happen. But if my chances are greater to carry to viability without medical intervention- that’s a chance I’m willing to take. Bc I don’t think I will have another chance I’ll be 43 in August. I’m old! 😏 any suggestions or opinions... I would appreciate it. I wanna be happy but I’m too scared ! Thanks for reading! Baby dust to every one TTC