Struggling

Not going to lie but I am in a real shit place - I’ve been diagnosed with Endometriosis for the last 10 years -I’m 24 and recently going out I also have PCOS - mentally I can’t take being in pain 24/7 now - I feel exhausted and just don’t want to fight it anymore ! We are also TTC and that isn’t helping 7 months in - I just feel down constantly now done with the pain all the time and being high on painkillers just so I’m not crying 24/7 - I know there is a lot going on in the world and I have it easy compared to a lot of people but mentally I’m done with this all and feel selfish for feeling this way ! Trying to be positive is hard so very hard ! Rant over 😭