Feeling sad 😔

I was so optimistic this month, our first time trying after m/c. We waited for af & I was so sure this was going to be it. Af is due Monday (16th) took a test yesterday & it was negative 😔😔😔 my daughter turned 1 in October so really want them to be close in age but I feel like it will never happen. If my husband knew how much I've spent on ovulation & pregnancy test her would seriously have a heart attack.