I’m 9dpo, af is expected to come on Sunday 6/21 (Father’s Day..) and I can feel the sadness creeping in because I know deep down I’m not pregnant again.

I’m frustrated, like a lot of you out there, because I feel like I’m doing everything right. Prenatals, sex every other day especially on O day, minimal coffee and alcohol consumption, low sugar and processed food diet, etc. I’ve considered backing away from the ovulation strips to lower my stress but I’m such a control freak that I NEED To know when I’ve ovulated. I feel it would stress me out even more knowing my ovulation is coming but I don’t know WHEN.

We haven’t been trying as long as a lot of women on here but it’s still heartbreaking getting negative after negative when your friends are getting pregnant left and right. I have a 1.5 year old son already and I love him so much but I’ve always wanted more than one child and it’s so hard.

Anyways I’m just feeling sad and feel like crying. I know I’m not “out” yet but I sure feel like I am especially hearing everyone else having really promising symptoms and I’m pretty much feeling nothing. Im just trying to get my pitty party out now and over with so I don’t ruin Father’s Day for my husband this weekend. I already ruined his birthday last month when I got two positive pregnancy tests early in the week and then got my period the day before his birthday.