I’m 38 weeks tomorrow and like the title says I’m feeling really out of sorts and emotional. This is our second, and I am depending on my parents to take our 3 year old when we’re in the hospital. My parents bought a vacation home last year that’s about an hour away from us and they are there all the time fixing up and working on house projects. I am afraid that when the time comes they will be there and not here. Our contingency plan is to take daughter to the hospital with us and have my husband wait in the car with her until one of my parents can get her, but that means me having to go into the hospital alone. Not that I’d want my 3 year old in the delivery room anyway, but she wouldn’t be allowed in anyway bc of the covid visitors restriction. So if it’s a quick labor I could potentially have to do it alone. I have AMAZING parents who would actually go to the ends of the earth for me, hubby and our family. I am so appreciative of that, especially bc my husband’s family is the opposite. I realize that we are very lucky to have them, and I love them dearly. I also logically know that they deserve to have their own life and not be tied to what I’m doing. So it’s really weird for me that I am suddenly feeling kind of neglected by them and that the house projects are more important to them than I am. My brother and his wife are also expecting their first (which I am so excited about) and she is due just two weeks after me, and they happen to live close to the vacation home my parents have bought. So I feel like they are prioritizing being close to them in these weeks and I find myself feeling a little overlooked. I get that it’s my brothers first but they have my sister in laws parents and don’t have to worry about what to do with another child. We literally don’t have any other option than my parents, considering the covid issue in my state. It doesn’t help that my mom also indicated she would be around during these last few weeks of pregnancy to help me out, but is mostly at the vacation home instead, and just promised my daughter a day together only to reschedule due to house projects, so now I have to break the news to my daughter who is soooo excited about the visit. I just feel like I can’t rely on them the way I thought i could and it’s a strange feeling.

I feel like objectively I am probably overreacting and just hormonal/emotional/very anxious, so feel free to tell me I’m being needy and out of line 😂 maybe I just need a reality check.