I just need to vent 😪

I've liked him for the past year, he's truly an amazing guy but I know he doesn't feel the same way.

At first I considered being friends with benefits as a "negotiation" maybe that way I'll get closer to him but I realised you can't make someone interested in you through sex. And it doesn't seem to change anything.

Today we had sex and I finally decided for myself that I shouldn't hurt myself further. I told him I can't do this anymore because of my feelings for him and it's hurting me seeing nothing will change.

It still sucks knowing it has come to an end and to be fair part of me feel like I'm losing him, but I never had him to begin with! It's time to this chapter and move on.

I still feel sad and hurt that he doesn't feel the same way, but he was understanding and said we can just stay as friends