Help!

I didn't think I could get pregnant. I just found out yesterday from the suboxone clinic that I'm pregnant. My last (irregular)period was april 9th. My abortion is scheduled for july 2nd. I don't know what to do. I wasn't planning on having kids at my age(34) but am scared my "baby fever" will re-emerge and regret my decision to terminate. I'm lost. I don't exactly have the financial stability rn to support a child. I'm not even married!(in a 2 year relationship). Help! Please give me support and guidance. Do not belittle me.

My high risk is stage 4 renal failure and a pregnancy carried out could push me right into dialysis.