Second thoughts? Just venting tw MC

I’m 8dpo now. My husband and I had tons of sex this month.

Here’s the back story, 2 very early miscarriages since January. No reason for them, just unexplained. I was devastated. Husband said no more trying for a while, then we talked and agreed we would just play it by ear and what’s meant to be will find a way.

Now my period is due in 6 days, I’m having no symptoms besides insomnia (unusual for me) and thirst (happened both other times too) (I know it could be early for symptoms so idk) It just doesn’t feel like my period is going to come. Usually I have wicked PMS.

Now here’s the thing... I’m scared I’m pregnant again. I’m so scared of having another miscarriage. I don’t want to give up but it’s just scary knowing I might go through that pain again.. :(

Anyone else feel the same way ever? Any advice?

Oh I should also add I did do some grief counselling for the losses. But personally didn’t find it helpful.