Help ! I feel alone and abandoned

Before it all happened he used to tell me “I love you it wouldn’t matter if you were pregnant because I want to be with you” now that the news has come he’s been so distant when I asked him why he tells me “he’s just weird like that” then I wanted to discuss about the baby he said “he was not ready he has so much things to pay how can he be down with this right now” I’m so depressed sometimes I feel like I don’t wanna live anymore it’s so early and it feels like I’m already being abandoned.  I can’t tell my parents because they would probably be disappointed in me for not being married but the truth is I’ve had cysts for so long I just want to be happy about this but everything is just the opposite I need someone and no one’s there.