Need some positivity.!

I’m 30 years old & trying to get pregnant with my husband since last one year. Last year at around this time I was having delayed periods every cycle was 4-5 days longer from the last one month ultimately leading to skipping whole month then in September I was diagnosed with PCOS, no cyst formation just hormonal imbalance resulting in irregular ovulation. I took 6 months course of medicines. In Jan my AF started on 11th that was with medicines. After that my doc took me off medicines to check the results. I got AF on 12th Feb then on 12th March without medicine which was good. Later I had an appointment scheduled for ovulation study which I couldn’t attend because of COVID lockdown. Since then my cycles are getting shorter. I had AF on 10th April, then 6th May, then 1st June. I’m so depressed & confused first longer cycles now shorter. 😫

Now it’s already 29 June & as per trend of getting shorter cycles I should have started my AF but no sign. I did have mild cramps on 26th & was sure that it was AF since I always start my AF with cramps. But no sign till date. I also don’t have any other typical pregnancy symptoms. Only mild cramps here & there. I don’t have courage to test & get disheartened by yet another negative.

Also My husband got admitted in hospital yesterday, some issue in his legs so I can’t share all this with him. & also more reason that I’m scared of getting negative result! What the hell should I do?

Sorry for the rant!