🚨🚨 LONG RANT 🚨🚨

First of all I just wanna start off by saying WE MADE IT TO JULLLYYYY!!!!! I can not believe this you guys! Our babies are due next month!!!! I’m due August 5th but I have a gut feeling little man will become a July baby, which mama is totally okay with 💙 I’m so excited to finally have him in my arms 😍😍

Now with that in mind.. all day today I’ve been pretty much reminiscing on this pregnancy (which is my first)... I can honestly say that this is definitely not what I imagined when it came to being pregnant... not even in my wildest dreams did I think I would be pregnant during such a scary time in the world... a whole pandemic taking over the world while I’m here just trying to enjoy all the fun things about pregnancy. I (we) missed out on maternity pictures, baby showers, distancing ourselves from family and friends during the time want the most support, we even had to go solo for baby appointment😓 now don’t get me wrong I feel extremely blessed and lucky to have had such an uncomplicated and healthy pregnancy and baby. I guess as a first time mom, I was looking forward to all the extras of pregnancy. Also not to mention that I feel like I struggled A LOT with my mental health throughout pregnancy.. the beginning I didn’t have much of a supportive husband and then this whole pandemic came along to make it worse. I’ve felt very distanced from my husband with pregnancy.. he hasn’t really shown much enthusiasm since we found out back in November. He’s been very cold when it comes to baby and baby stuff. After about 3 weeks of finding I was pregnant he told me that “it was gross I was pregnant” which he claims to have been a joke, but to this day I don’t believe it really was a joke bc who says that even as a joke, let alone being first time parents and recently married... he referred to baby as “the kid” in the beginning which seems pretty cold if you ask me... we’ve had some unfaithful incidents on his part and he just hasn’t really stepped up to his responsibilities as a husband or father since we’ve been married. It sucks because those actions have made me question if I still love him.. we made a year married on April 27th. Honestly sometimes, as terrible as it sounds, I wish I was doing this on my own.. just me and my baby boy. It’s just been such an emotionally overwhelming pregnancy.. I’m ready to have my baby in my arms and the world will feel like a better place 💙

Sorry for this EXTREMELY long post 😅 I just needed to get some of these things off my mind ... if you made it this far please feel free to post your own rant and free your thoughts in the comments below 💗

35 weeks exactly today! 5 more weeks to go!!!!!