Okay. So this might be a really stupid and irrelevant post, but any feedback would be nice.

I’m 19. I never drink or smoke (weed I’m meaning, but nothing else either). I know I’m underage anyways, but I’m not even meaning like partying and stuff.

I don’t really like the taste of alcohol. I’ve tried a few things, but never gotten drunk or anywhere close. I don’t give into peer pressure, that’s never an issue, and I’m never around people who would force me too.

I used to just be scared, and not like the taste, or just not like being not in control of what I do or say. In high school I was always quieter kind of, but i grew up with those people so I can be outgoing around people I’m close to and that I know won’t judge me. I really have no idea what I would be like anyways. BUT now it’s to the point where sometimes I’ll just be hanging with a few friends and they’ll just be casually drinking a little bit & they’ll offer me some or ask if I want anything and I say no. I want to say yes but it’s like I don’t even know how to explain it. I feel like I’ve said no for so long that once I say yes people will make a big deal about it and judge me or something? I don’t know why I think this because I KNOW they won’t judge me, and probably won’t even care, but I don’t know how to get this stupid idea out of my head that they will make a big deal out of it.

I’m not saying I want to go out and drink all the time or go wild and start partying. I did go away to college, and went to a few parties with friends (but I am SO SHY so it was terrible) & I didn’t drink more than a few sips of my friends drink before we even left to go.

This could be really stupid. I don’t need anything negative. I know I’m not 21, but like, I’m not the only teenager who has (or I guess hasn’t really) drank alcohol or done illegal things. Any advice would be great, or honestly even just say something to make me stop overthinking this. It’s really not a big deal, I just overthink everything and always have this fear of being judged & not being liked.

If you read all this please please comment something, it doesn’t even have to be an amazing piece of advice, just literally ANYTHING positive.