Coping advice

So I broke up with my boyfriend two days ago. He has been acting really weird and I asked him about it and he said nothing was wrong. Then he came on ler and was tickling me I was doing the same. I was laying on top of him and accidentally pulled his hair a little and I felt bad so I started kissing his head. He was pushing me away and I asked why I couldn’t kiss him and he said “you’re just touching me all the time!” And I got off and went into my own space because he had hurt my feelings. Later after he left I texted and asked what was going on, that he didn’t seem to want me kissing him, and he didn’t want me touching him. His answer was “idk ig I’m kinda just loosing feelings.” It broke my heart but I said I think we should end things. I’ve been having a really hard time and I really miss him. He was my first for a lot of things and I loved him so much but he didn’t love me back. I cried for an entire day and am still crying now. He was a big part in my life and I can’t stop thinking of him and it makes me cry at random moments. I just want to stop thinking about him because he obviously doesn’t care that we are over and he has lost me. I gave him everything but I didn’t get much in return. I can say he did not treat me badly but he didn’t treat me how I would want to be treated as a girlfriend. I was treated as more of a friend. But I loved being around him and kissing him and cuddling him it’s just really hard to wrap my head around the fact that he’s not really going to be in my life anymore.