Pregnancy after loss(being honest)

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Is so scary, I have days where I’m fine and I’m very hopeful and full of faith and declaring she will be here in nov/dec. other days I get scared and full of fear. I just really want to enjoy but pregnancy (since this is my last pregnancy) but I also want nov/dec to be here already. I am doing progesterone shots and that is having me super hopeful. Just venting!!