I saw a post that read :

"BAD MOM CONFESSION", I want to share my story anonymously.

I'm 29 week pregnant and the man I thought I would forever love is now the man I hate. We have 3 girl but one is special need. She is 5 year and nonverbal. She can do stuff like eat etc by herself but sometime she would also pee and shit on the floor. Might be due to her schedule being off. I had potty train her before and I'm working on it again. He won't help dealing with her. She is learning to write her alphabet because of me.

My youngest daughter will be 3 year old and she left handed like him. I have asked him numerous time since he is home more to teach her but instead he just stick her in front the tv. She can talk and know the alphabet, number, shape and color etc from me. My oldest turning 7 year started yelling due to him yelling after the 5 year. She ain't deaf but need to be guide. Someday I cry from frustration. I hate asking him for help since he always yelling. I want the help. My youngest call him his name and he get mad. To me he don't act like a dad would so why should the name matter. Its disrespectful but how about to spend more time with them.

When he is home is don't help. He goes to his room(I said that cause I don't sleep with him) and if the kids goes in there he start yelling for them to get out or he goes in the bathroom and lock the door.

I asked him to take out the trash since it was garbage day yesterday. I wake up 5am and he is up watching tv in his room so I started taking out the trash. I spin my leg yesterday and being 29 week grabbing anything heavy is a strain on my body. I clean up the front room better ate cereal then when back to sleep at 8am today. I left the dishes. I cant stand on my leg anymore. Instead of waking up to dishes clean. **Wishful thinking** He added more. He waited till I went back to sleep to eat and watch tv. Then when the kids wake up. He fucking left the frontroom to use go in his room.

The pain I'm feeling hurt. I'm depress. He ain't no help.

I asked him if we can go to a drive in movie theater a while back maybe May. He didn't want go but his friend said let's go out and eat and he was happy to go. He did went.

This year I was planning to leave him. I truly was! I get myself pregnant looking for love and now this virus 😭 Now I'm focusing myself to do everything around the house dispute the pain I feel physical and emotionally.

Yes I talked to him but nothing happen. Only time he help without me asking is if we have sex. I hate having sex not because I end up in pain but his room is always a mess. I literally clean it for him monthly. He don't. I clean it on father day and now it look the same messy like a garbage dumpsite. I spoken to his mom about his mess and she said she would talk to him. That was 2 week ago. It mean a month now and that 3 mcdonald mcflurry is still by the tv stand. The garbage is heaping up. The brand new sheet I buy, look a different color. This is why I don't sleep with him nor do i want the baby boy in his room. I now sleep in the guest room with the crib already set up. His mom think I should go back to sleep to sleep with him. The house is 4 bedroom. I'm not sleeping with him sexually or physically.

I hope my post made sense. My eye were watering while I wrote. What advice would you give me. I'm depressing badly. I hurting.