I changed my goal on glow today from trying to conceive to avoiding pregnancy. Not because I don’t want a child, not because I haven’t been trying for the last 7 years, it just doesn’t seem like something that is going to happen for me. I am married, but honestly...I don’t know for how much longer. It seems things are becoming strained between us. Some days are great, followed by days of just wanting to run away into the woods and never have a man touch me again. After two years of trying the old fashioned way I had gone to the doctor and gotten checked out. They said there was no reason why I wasn’t able to get pregnant, everything was perfectly normal and for me to get him checked out. I mentioned that and he was like no. Saying it would cost to much and that if it happened it happened it didn’t really matter to him. But it matters to me. And I feel like I’m running out of time. But I’m tired of stressing myself out over this. So I’m going to try to focus on a even more healthy lifestyle, find new hobbies, and maybe hopefully salvage my marriage. So I changed my goal. And I cried. I’m still crying writing this. I just feel lost.