The Guilt is the Worst Part

My husband and I suffered a loss of our little boy at 9 weeks on March 17th. 2 or 3 weeks later I got pregnant with our little girl and I'm now 16 weeks. My husband and I really wanted a boy, already have a 13 month old daughter together. Once in a while I feel resentful I'm having a girl, at least it feels like resentment, but I really couldnt tell you to be honest. It's a pain deep in my chest and all I can think is "I should be shopping for baby boy clothes right now" and then I feel guilty because I love our rainbow baby.

When I lost our boy I knew I wanted to try again, and thought it would be cool to get pregnant again soon, but I wasnt expecting the emotions of going through celebration and loss.

I didnt even know where to post this, so if this is in the wrong group im sorry. I just needed to let this out somewhere.