I got in an argument with the father of my children. We were together for 7 years and this is one of the biggest disagreements we have had.

He says that he Loves me so much that he wants me in every way. That he wants all of me. But I have been sexually abused in the past before I met him and he knows about it. Also when he was drunk in the past I would sometimes wake up to him trying to do anal and he pushed me into trying it several times and if I asked him to stop or told him I couldn't do it anymore he kept going. Before that I agreed to try anal and there was only one time when I was ok with it but now it makes me feel very uncomfortable and unsafe. It makes me panic. I tried explaining how it makes me feel several times. But he doesn't understand because he says that I promised I would try and I did. He says that he needs me all of me and that I should care about his needs too. He acts like he expects me to do it whether I am comfortable or not. I don't know how to handle this or talk about it.

We were in a situation where we couldn't be in contact with each other for almost a year and now that we can I honestly don't know where we stand. He wants to be with me and our children again but I don't know if I want that. I don't know yet