Should I stay in this relationship?

Me and my best friend since sixth grade started dating December 18th 2019. We had such an amazing relationship. I was on cloud nine when I was with him and he truly made me the happiest girl ever. I’ve always loved him as my best friend but I started loving him romantically as the relationship went on. He got me through a lot of things I could’ve never got through alone. I hate this but he was almost a form of medication for me. I have ocd and depression which causes me to be kind of clingy. He knows about all my problems and seemed to support me. He wrestles and plays football and I would go to all of his games and matches to root him on. We both were thriving with each other. We argued too. He always commented on some of my close friends bikini pics with eye ball emojis and would to to hug other females which got under my skin a little bit. He would get mad at me for being upset about it. On June 26 he randomly broke up with me because he told me he’s tired of commitment. This broke my heart. I’ve lost 10 pounds in 2 days over this and eating was a chore for me for a while because when I get really sad I have trouble eating. It was so unexpected and out of the blue and it kills me. We continued to be friends and it works okay but I miss our actual relationship so bad. He treats me kinda coldly now. Like he will flirt every once In a while but he will joke around a lot and not be warm and loving like he used to be. He doesn’t text as much and doesn’t call as much. We fight about 3 times a week about the breakup. He try’s to blame it on me but my telling me that if I wasn’t so clingy he could’ve stayed in the relationship. He never communicated that with me. He would get mad at me for being jealous sometimes but he never talked to me about disliking clingy. It makes me angry that he blames it on me because I know I was the best I could be. He told me that he wants me to wait a year or so for him until he’s ready to date again. I was down for it but deep down I know if we have a next relationship I won’t be able to trust him like I used to. Not to mention he’s flirting with other girls while I “wait for him” what do I do? I still love him.