Help me

My baby daddy was away for a month and I thought I missed him and I wanted to be with him but the whole time he was away I was seeing 11:11, 11:11:11 & 1:11 I feel like it was telling me I need to look after the kids and be a single mum. The night he came back we had sex and afterwards he was like “is that it, a 50 year old has more sex drive” putting me down like there was something wrong with me. Then he was defending himself. I can’t do it anymore. Wtf do I do