Emotions about Baby turning one

Anyone else super emotional about their baby turning 1???

She’s my second born and last as we are 1000000% not having any more but this week I have been super emotional about her birthday in a couple of days literally crying all the time. I feel like a massive failure At the moment.

We’ve been in lockdown since March feel like we’ve missed out on so much.

I got super upset that she won’t be having a massive party like my son did. But it’s what’s best in this current climate.

We are having my brother and sister over and having some birthday cake in the garden.