I truly wonder if there will come a day I don’t feel *this* guilty about eating any amount of carbs. I had a burrito at taco time today with my husband, I tried to convince myself I could do it this time, and I feel fatter than I have in WEEKS (I’ve been doing pretty good getting myself to eat & general body image lately). To be honest, I don’t know where I’m at or if I belong in this group... I speak to my therapist here and there about my struggles with eating and she’s never outright agreed I have an ED (then again therapists are never direct so who knows). But for weeks, years after eating something like a tortilla, I have a mental breakdown everytime I think about it. I feel crazy. I used to be able to eat anything I wanted as a kid without having a single shit to offer.