Not sure what to do

I have been going through depression and anxiety for about 5 years. 3 years trying to conceive but lost 2 in 2018, surgery 2019 and 1 lost in 2020. I been trying and so far nothing. Waiting now and it making me worry it going to be another no. I feeling lost and ready to break down everyday. COVID doesn’t help being stuck in the house all the time. Unable to socialize normally. I just sometime don’t want to deal with I all anymore. It just not putting me in a good head space. It really hard waiting out the two weeks. I don’t have anyone to vent to about it except here and my husband. It hard to have been trying for 3 years and it just feels like you’ll never make to the end with your baby. Any encouragement will be appreciated.