Need advice😞

My fiancé and I had our baby July 13th of this year... I was around 35 weeks and had to have an emergency c section...

we are sadly having to plan a memorial ... I’m still hopeful of a miracle for my little baby... I don’t want it to be goodbye..

Deep down I just wanna be a mom , so please don’t judge me for the next question...

When can we start trying again?? I want to start again soon.. but the risks of complications while now being a high risked pregnancy make me nervous to start trying too soon.

This horrible experience has shown me that I want nothing more than to have a family...