Struggling

Struggling between wanting to be a mom and living life.....I’m only 21 and my fiance(25) are getting married oct. 17. We have dreamed and talked and talked about being parents for a long time. But we also have dreams we can’t to achieve...like me with finishing and year and a half of college. I feel like having a child would give me motivation to achieve our dreams...I cannot express how much being a mother is important to me. I’m just always going back and forth between wanting to have a child and not