Help! I need insight- UPDATE

UPDATE:

We have decided to leave my daughter with my parents who have been social distancing and then bring my son, whom I will be wearing almost the whole time.

Thank you guys for reading this long post!

Original post:

My husbands other grandpa passed away yesterday. His first grandpa passed in January and I made pillows. This grandpa, we weren’t as close with as we wished. Anyway. The funeral is Tuesday.

I have a 3 month old boy and almost 2 year old daughter.

I don’t feel comfortable going to the funeral where all his family will be.

I’ve spoken to his family, they’re tired of living in fear of Covid. I get it. They won’t/don’t social distance.

I’m tired of living in fear too BUT my own life isn’t the only life I have to think about.

I have a 3 month old and an almost 2 year old. I don’t want to go to the funeral because family won’t social distance and everyone wants to meet my 3 month old.

I KNOW for a fact that I will be called a b*tch every time I tell people “six feet away” or “please don’t kiss” or “please don’t hug”

And I know that I will get worn down.

Please. I need help.

My husband thinks the same things as me, he’s worried about his children too, but he also wants to be there for the funeral, but he doesn’t want to be alone.

I breastfeed my son and he won’t take bottles. He’s dairy and soy sensitive. It doesn’t work leaving him home.

Please. Give me your advice Glow People!

Here’s a picture of my babes.