I had so much hope (TW miscarriage)

4 times. I never made it past the 6th week

4 times. I never got to see a heartbeat

4 times. I stayed hopeful even when I knew something was wrong

4 times. I lost a baby.

But this was this 5th time.

I was hopeful.

I “knew” it was my time

God gave me this baby and he wouldn’t let me experience the brutality of another loss.

God would save this baby.

I would finally be a mom.

But I was wrong. 6w2d. Right on time. I’m losing the baby.

5 times. I never made it past the 6th week

5 times. I never got to see a heartbeat

5 times. My heart has been shattered

5 times. I’ve had to go through this

5 times. My dream of being a mother was torn away from me

5 times. I’ve prayed.

And

5 times. My prayers were not heard.

But I believe and declare that God will make me a mother one day.

No matter how many times I have to go through this pain.

My time will come.

Congrats and prayers and blessing to all of you lucky ladies! ❤️