Today I lost my baby

Today, I endured every expecting mother’s night mare.

Last Tuesday we were told I may be experiencing an ectopic pregnancy.

Through imaging and blood work, it was confirmed this morning that this pregnancy was not viable. The sac was not in my uterus, but was also not in my fallopian tube. The sac seemed to be nestled outside of my uterus, with no exact location.

This past week I’ve been through hell. Poked, scared, laying on cold hospital beds, being told my pregnancy would not survive and if not treated; it could kill me.

This morning my doctor wanted to see me; immediately. It was explained to me, step by step; and decided for my health and safety; I needed to take measures to end the pregnancy.

At about 4pm today, I was given two injections of methotrexate.

Methotrexate is a chemotherapy drug that slows and stops the growth of cell tissue. Mainly used to treat cancer.

I’m not out of the woods yet. Sometimes this drug doesn’t work; ectopic ruptures happen and emergency surgery is needed. That is the worse case scenario. Hopefully my body takes the first injections and is successful. Praying my body absorbs the remaining cells, no rupture and hopefully no emergency surgery. It can take up to four weeks to be “pregnancy free”.

Right now, I’m okay. I’m sad, but I’ll be alright. I am very tired, with cramping.