Break up

Ok so I don’t really know where to talk about this so looking for some support from other women.

About a month ago my now ex boyfriend (of 4 years) cheated on me with my friend. (In my house while I was in the same room as them) She reported him for sexual assault. Obviously this hit me like a bus and really fucked me up. The main issue is that I don’t believe her, she was very manipulative and would lie compulsively but never to this scale. I knew him better than anyone and know how well he treated me and never ever even once did something I didn’t want to do or pushed me or did anything without consent to the point he’d ask are you sure you want to do this.

One of my closest friends was the girls brother so now we aren’t talking. Another close friend was amazing and there for me for about 3 weeks until he told me he liked me and when I said I didn’t like him back like that he’s suddenly best buddies with the girl my ex cheated with (even though he slagged her off massively to me) and my other “best friend” has just had an argument with me saying she doesn’t get why I’m in a bad mood all the time and doesn’t see my problem.

I literally have nobody left to talk to and it fucking hurts.

As someone who’s been sexually assaulted before I want to believe anyone brave enough to report it because I wasn’t however I don’t believe her and that hurts me even more thinking someone could make false allegations like this.

Any advice/kind words would really help my mental state right now from you amazing beautiful women❤️