I can’t decide with little one #2

Okay y’all, so long story short I tried breastfeeding with my first son and after supplementing and struggling for 3 months we switched to formula. The biggest worry for me is my mental health. It took a huge toll on me trying and failing, then beating myself up(I had postpartum depression so bad after my first that I became suicidal and ended up finding myself a psychiatrist to be put on stabilizing medication). I’m due with another and at first I knew I didn’t even want to try facing these demons again but as we’re coming up to the third trimester I have been thinking that I know breastfeeding would still be better for him, I just don’t know if I can physically produce enough or mentally handle putting myself through the stress all over again. I’m sure I will be battling depression on top of everything once again. Im stressed 😥