I hate that with my first child I gained so much weight that I worked hard to keep off, I hate that afterwards I didn’t lose any of it because my body is freaking stupid af, I hate that now I’m overweight and pregnant again, only upside is I haven’t gained anything. But I fucking hate how I look, I don’t have my cute bump like before I just look like I’m getting fatter not a cut bump like I’m pregnant. I’m so insecure I hate my body showing at all I cover everything with big baggy clothes I hate my husband touching me I feel disgusting. I know after this baby is out of me I’m going to try so much harder to lose this weight, but it feels like I have to deal with months of feeling like this and some more until I can actually do some real work towards my goal and diet without worrying for my baby.... definitely feeling worse this pregnancy