Pregnancy after a loss *tw*

I had a miscarriage in may. After the loss we decided to focus on my health and put off trying for another baby.

I track my ovulation and that’s how we’ve always not gotten pregnant. For years.

Well, yesterday I saw the box of pregnancy tests I’ve had in the bathroom since may and I thought “that’ll be fun to take one” so I did, set it to the side and got in the shower. Looked at it when I got out...positive.

I thought maybe it was an evap so I took another...positive.

So I went to Walmart and bought some....all positive. 😳

I’m not excited yet because of the loss. I feel like this is just my hormones messing with me and I’m not actually pregnant. Or it won’t actually stick. Or that because I didn’t give myself time to focus on my health... I won’t make it through this pregnancy healthy.

Can someone help me? Encourage me? How did you find excitement after loss?