Just need to vent

I just need to vent, my family and friends don’t know I’m ttc. I really want that baby girl, I’ve had 2 boys, and I love them to death but it would be nice to have a baby girl! I finally got my period back since I’m still breastfeeding our second son and we wanted to start trying(with everything going on I don’t want to stop breastfeeding to boost his immune system) and I know I had to stop breastfeeding my first to get pregnant with my second but I really don’t want to do that. But my husband ended up on heavy pain meds due to a virus that is related to feeling like appendicitis. Which already put a damper on how much physical activity he can do so sex isn’t easy or as often. But the pills make it hard for him to stay hard and to be able to finish. I’m not upset he’s on the pills, he needs them to help get through the day but it’s just disappointing that we finally get a chance to try and he’s not able to. It’s like our bodies just are never on the same page to getting pregnant. I don’t need any negativity about this I know it will happen eventually if we just keep trying. But it just stinks...