Perineal Message-Recovery of episiotomy

With my first baby, the doctor did a small episiotomy during delivery. “Small.” It was a really rough recovery and it still bothers me if it’s agitated. Even if I wipe too hard. 🤦🏼‍♀️ My daughter is only 17 months so I know it wasn’t too long ago.

The midwife I see now says that I will most likely tear but I could try perineal messages to break down the scar tissue. (I know you don’t start these until around 34-36 weeks. The thought of recovery from this again makes me queasy. Does anyone have any positive stories after an episiotomy!? TIA